mothers day!

Happy Mothers day friends! This mothers day has been all kinds of crazy! This is the first year without my mom. WOW, does it really hit you when you see everyone else with their moms, taking pictures, buying cards, spending the day together. This is not so fun.Even through all of this, I have felt very overwhelmed these last few days with a feeling of total happiness. I have been through hell and back, back to hell, and now I'm doing everything in my power to pick up the pieces of my crazy, out of control life. Through all of the pain, I find peace with my family. Total happiness. I feel so incredibly lucky to sit here and think back on my life and realize that almost everything I have dreamed of has come true. I married my best friend! Jason and I saved and worked our butts off to be able to live the way we want. I have two of the most incredible children a mom could ask for. Now all I need to do it move my butt to South Carolina. That WILL happen, just not so soon. So, life has really thrown me some nasty hits..an I mean nasty, but the past few days, it doesn't feel so dark. I feel like I have the strength to get through this. I pray that God can give me a break for awhile and let me try to make a new normal!

Aside from that, My sister had her sweet little Emily today. I'm so incredibly excited and cannot wait to hold her. Jason and I took the monsters to the zoo and were only there about 45 min when we had to leave. After a few hours she was here! I am so incredibly proud of Katie for braving what she feared and in the end, she has a beautiful baby girl! I cannot think of a more incredible way to spend mothers day  than bringing life into the world. Such an amazing day. Now that that is all over, I get to spend the next week trying to figure out where Jason is taking me for our anniversary! I'm pretty sure I already know, but ill just go with it. Cannot wait to get the heck out of here!!

xo