looking for inspiration

Happy Monday! Not ready for reality after a short weekend. Got a date night at the boathouse with Jason and a girls day with Nora on Sunday. I also had a lot of inspiration this weekend and I feel like I spend everyday trying to figure out what it is I want out of life. Since the death of my parents, I find it impossible to go back to the life that once was. I honestly don't want to. I feel like my life has been separated into three parts. The part where everyone was here, happy, and healthy, the part where they were sick, and now the new part. The part I'm trying to figure out. I feel like lately I have so much anger. I don't want to feel angry. I'm so tired of seeing all of the bad days from the past in my head. I'm just not sure how to get rid of them I want to move forward so bad and it is alot harder than anyone could ever imagine. When you grow up in a family that is extremely close, and then all of the sudden, its over, it tears you up and leaves scars that I know will never go away. So, in the meantime, I'm trying to figure out who I am, what I want, and where I need to be. I am so thankful that I have a husband that puts up with my crazy mood swings and listens to me say the same things over and over. Healing is hard, and takes time. For right now, I go out of my way to surround myself with positive things in life that make me happy, and inspire me. Hope you all find something this week that inspires you as well! xo

                                                    and of course, a few of the kids......