my babies..

As I am sitting here watching Noah try to put together some of Jason's old ninja turtles toys, (or "engine turtles"as Noah would call them) I am overwhelmed by how incredibly fast this little guy grew up. I realize that he is only a toddler, but I can remember rocking him in the rocker and thinking "I better enjoy this because soon I wont be able to do it." He is such a little man now and so many people think that he is four or five. I hate to make him any older than he already is. Everyone tells you that "they grow up so fast" and you agree, but only when you are there and you look at them and think "when the heck did you start using complete sentences?", do you realize just how fast. Even Nora blows my mind. I feel sad sometimes with Nora because of everything that was going on with my mom and dad when she was an infant. Sometimes I feel like I missed out on those days. No regrets though. I love that they are now starting to play together and sometimes Noah will even share a toy or two...and then take it back a few minutes later. I look at these two and its an incredible feeling of pride. I look back at life and I feel like in a lot of ways I was dealt a nasty card. My mom and dad will never see my kids grow up. That is all there is too it and it is a very hard fact to face. I know that Noah was the light of my moms life and she loved him more than words. I'm other ways, I am extremely lucky. I married my best friend. We went through alot of hard times and in the end love always wins. Then God blessed me with two of the most incredible children a girl could ask for. I look at them and wonder what I did to deserve exactly what I always dreamed of. A boy and a girl. They are so incredibly beautiful and I really do thank God everyday for them. They are the light of my life. Even when they are little monsters, they always somehow know how to make me smile and help me to see life through their eyes. So, that's just my thoughts for today, and what has been on my mind for the past few days. Sorry if I rambled! Hope everyone has a beautiful day!xo