Day 4

Today was crap. For lots of reasons. Honestly this morning I was doing just fine. I didn't hate my kids, wasn't crabby, my smoothie actually was delicious. It helped that I dumped real cocoa powder Into it! Also acceptable. It wasn't until something totally unrelated happened. Staph. Yes... For those of you that follow me on Facebook, you know that I cannot seem to escape that crap! This time it's Noah. Took him to the dr and he's on an antibiotic and I'm praying it's better in the morning or it's back to the hospital we go. Later this evening, we found two spots on Nora that look like they could be anything right now. Mostly look like mosquito bites and I'm praying that since she decided to put on a tutu and go commando out In The backyard, that is what happened. Tomorrow morning should answer more questions. As far as the sugar detox goes... Not so good today. Didn't really feel bad, but ate a handful of French fries at chick fil a today. On the no list. I didn't care. It's not like they satisfied the craving...the grilled nuggets were not doing it for me and I kept dipping everything in mustard. I hate mustard but nothing tastes good. I found myself in tears when a lady delivered a milkshake to the woman behind me. I tried to convince Jason that he should tell me it's ok to eat a cookie just this once. He laughed and told me no... No it wasn't. Dinner tonight was tacos in lettuce "shells" while tasty, they did nothing for me. Spent a good hour and a half stressed out from this stupid staph situation and talked to myself about maybe going to Starbucks. Decided insted to open up the candy jar in my kitchen. Got out a bag of m&m's , stared at them, then decided to go to bed before I lost it. This is silly!! Do I really crave this that bad?! I just hope that if I can get anything out of this, it's the horrible need for it. I really do just need it. I can think of three things I would have eaten tonight had I not been on this detox and I would not have thought twice about it. Oh well. On to day five. I'll need some prayers tomorrow if y'all don't mind for me and mostly the kids!! Praying that they are both doing just fine tomorrow. Until then.. I'm off to bed to dream of doughnuts with sprinkles.