Before, I was at a salon for the past almost 5 years. After about 2 years I was no longer happy. I liked the girls that I worked with and I was busy. So, I stuck it out. After a couple more years I found myself getting jealous of just about everyone who loved their job and started looking online at my options. Being afraid to leave the area, I thought that I was stuck. There were no other options and I had to stay. Also, being told that if you leave the salon, the salon will have to close, puts a huge weight on you and the guilt setts in. I had also made very good friends with one of the owners, and when your parents are dying of cancer, all the ears around you are a big help. We had lots of days where we would just sit and complain about life, husbands, kids, work, etc. we also had lots of laughs. Although I was getting to the point where I couldn't handle my kids and was always screaming at my husband. The situations at work were getting worse even after a much needed relocation of the salon. I had hoped that would have made me happier, but no such luck.
Soon after, another friend and I decided that we were going to become " renters!" We were incredibly excited, and I felt like this was my way of having my cake and eating it too. I got to stay incredibly close to home, keep my clients, but not have to deal with the phone, or any of the other drama. I was just going to go to work, and go home.
The first day was a disaster and the next day I got into a huge fight with my " friend " who was the owner. Being told that if I would have bought my own color, cleaned their toilets , and answered their phones, everyone would have been happy. Also being told that I only worked there to make myself look better than everyone else. That was the last of it. I lost it and finally put an end to the misery!
The next day after talking to a very good friend that I used to work for, I found a new job and worked there that night. The relief was incredible. I walked into an environment that was incredibly welcoming, and just had a wonderful energy. Here I was with a bunch of girls I didn't know who we're incredibly good to me from the beginning. No constant complaining about how much they hated their kids, their husbands, their life in general. Just a positive environment. At one point I just thought ... This can be real... It's too good.
I didn't realize just how unhappy I was until it was over. I think it is easy to get trapped in the negative things in life. To get sucked into complaining all the time how awful life is can become consuming, and turn you into an equally negative person. I have had plenty of negative after losing my mom and dad. I think that is what started the downward spiral of needing something more. Life is incredibly short, and can be incredibly awful. I'm so thankful that God finally gave me the opportunity to get out of a not so good situation that was going no where.
I'm so thankful that I get to go to work every day in a positive environment where we all seem to love what we do. I don't come home emotionally drained, and hating my kids and husband. After going through the past two years with losing both of your parents, it can go one of two ways. I know for sure that i was in a downward spiral... Feeling negative, and stuck going no where. Just holding out until the day we made enough money where I didn't have to work.
Thank God for new beginnings. I love doing hair!! It has been a passion of mine forever and now that's what I do when I go to work. I am so thankful for Jason for putting up with me the last few months and sitting up with me all hours of the night so I can just get it all out.
Leaving was something I wish I would have done a long time ago but I'm comforted with the realization that God has a plan and that He is in control. It happened when it was suppose to. I am a better person because of it, and I have learned who I don't want to be. Thank you God for new beginnings.
