Where the heart is.

Not every day can be a good day. Some times there are emotions that are incredibly sneaky! It can be anything! A book, a piece of clothing, a song on the radio. I can be having a fantastic day and then one second later I start to get angry...SO angry. I have this incredible urge to just plea with God to bring them back! My mind races to think that maybe I am dreaming.. yes,"just wake up" I tell myself, but I  don't. Then comes the realization that what is done, is done. It happened. Its over. This time of year can really bring out the crazies in me. If you have been through this, you understand. One second you are fine. In a moment, something can  happen that pulls you right back to that place you sometimes want to stew in for awhile. We forget to be thankful for a minute. Thankfully, It has become easier to pull myself out. To look at what I have been given and the result of all that has happened. I know I say it a lot lately, but God has been so good! Is that ever something we get tired of hearing? I hope not. I absolutely have days where I think "what are we doing here, I miss my family! " But I'm so happy we made this move. It has brought me to a new place in my life that I desperately needed. We are still making changes every day. I am still trying to figure out my normal! I can say with all honestly though that being home with my kids everyday is a blessing. They make me crazy but they also take me to a place of pure joy. I am complimented every single time we go out that I have a beautiful family. I just wish with incredible intensity that my mom and dad were here to see it. So, prayers to all of you this season who have a heavy heart and are missing a piece of it..xo