You may be wondering..

 

 

For those of you that may be wondering how the 21 day sugar detox is going...well, its not. Now, before you go and get all judgmental on me, hear me out. First of all, this was a pretty hard thing to do. It doesn't help that I am 12 weeks pregnant and hungry. But in reality, that is not why I decided to quit.

The reason that I decided to go ahead and stop the detox, wasn't because I could not go another day without sugar. That actually got easier! A ton easier by day 5. The reason is because I really don't know what I'm suppose to be eating! "Well read the book and follow the directions silly!" You may be saying, but that isn't it either! Jason and I decided the other night to watch a food documentary "Forks over knives". I think I may have talked about it in a former thread. It was an eye opener to me about meat! Having two parents and multiple family members, friends, neighbors, you name it, die from cancer, its incredibly scary to watch after you have just been told that you need to consume a TON of meat every single day for 21 days. Not to mention that the meat you should be eating is preferably grass fed, free range, antibiotic free whatever else free meat. It is incredibly expensive. The list I had in my book was about $300 a week in meat alone. Then I hear about all of these studies done where populations that don't eat meat have these incredibly low cancer instances or none at all! So, if you know me and know that I am a borderline hypochondriac, I panic! I start to do all of this research on meat, and gluten, and dairy! Full fat vs. low fat, no carbs vs. high carbs, and every single study will give you a totally different answer. So what exactly is the truth? Is there a real right or wrong answer? I believe there is. Take EVERYTHING in moderation. Cut out as much processed foods as possible. If possible, cut it all out! Refined sugar is bad for us! Stop eating so much of it!!! Eat more veggies, more plant based diets with normal meat portion sizes! Read labels. If you cant pronounce it, don't eat it! Gluten is still out there for me to debate with because of how since we cut it out again, Noah has gone back to being more manageable! I really do believe that the gluten we consume today is not the gluten out ancestors consumed! Everything has been so mass produced to save dollars, that they have greatly modified it and some of just simply do not tolerate it. I try to stay away from it as much as possible, but I find I cant cut it out of my life forever. I think we all know that 10 years from now, a lot of the diets that we are eating are going to change even more! I can only hope that it is to a more whole foods way of living and the more processed junk becomes a thing of the past. I believe it will save a ton of lives.

For now, I will go about my daily life without the frustration of trying to figure out what is on a yes or no list and just eat real whole foods that GOD made as much as I possibly can . I know for a fact that I need to cut out sugar, and I have even since stopping this. It is a wake up call. I think we all need to make a few changes in our eating habits! Perhaps not drastic ones when you are 12 weeks pregnant and incredibly hormonal! 

A little secret!!

 

 

Hi Friends!! We have a surprise! Yep, baby number 3! We have prayed about this for along time not knowing if we were ready for it or not. God answered. And we are SO excited!

xoxoCarolyn



Day 4

Today was crap. For lots of reasons. Honestly this morning I was doing just fine. I didn't hate my kids, wasn't crabby, my smoothie actually was delicious. It helped that I dumped real cocoa powder Into it! Also acceptable. It wasn't until something totally unrelated happened. Staph. Yes... For those of you that follow me on Facebook, you know that I cannot seem to escape that crap! This time it's Noah. Took him to the dr and he's on an antibiotic and I'm praying it's better in the morning or it's back to the hospital we go. Later this evening, we found two spots on Nora that look like they could be anything right now. Mostly look like mosquito bites and I'm praying that since she decided to put on a tutu and go commando out In The backyard, that is what happened. Tomorrow morning should answer more questions. As far as the sugar detox goes... Not so good today. Didn't really feel bad, but ate a handful of French fries at chick fil a today. On the no list. I didn't care. It's not like they satisfied the craving...the grilled nuggets were not doing it for me and I kept dipping everything in mustard. I hate mustard but nothing tastes good. I found myself in tears when a lady delivered a milkshake to the woman behind me. I tried to convince Jason that he should tell me it's ok to eat a cookie just this once. He laughed and told me no... No it wasn't. Dinner tonight was tacos in lettuce "shells" while tasty, they did nothing for me. Spent a good hour and a half stressed out from this stupid staph situation and talked to myself about maybe going to Starbucks. Decided insted to open up the candy jar in my kitchen. Got out a bag of m&m's , stared at them, then decided to go to bed before I lost it. This is silly!! Do I really crave this that bad?! I just hope that if I can get anything out of this, it's the horrible need for it. I really do just need it. I can think of three things I would have eaten tonight had I not been on this detox and I would not have thought twice about it. Oh well. On to day five. I'll need some prayers tomorrow if y'all don't mind for me and mostly the kids!! Praying that they are both doing just fine tomorrow. Until then.. I'm off to bed to dream of doughnuts with sprinkles.

Day three

Well, it really was as bad as I thought it would be. Woke up absolutely starving and on the brink of a headache. Made myself a smoothie and went back to bed... Or at least got in bed. Can't go back to bed with a 4 and 2 year old. Spent my morning not really liking my kids. For no particular reason really, except that maybe I wanted a doughnut and they were not getting me one. Found an interesting vegan cookbook on another blog this morning and decided to hit up the barnes and noble which resulted in a flat tire on the side of the road👎. My headache was getting worse and honestly I'm not sure it it was because of the detox, or tension. Perhaps both. Came home for lunch literally nauseous. But not nauseous enough to eat say.. A chocolate cake!? Settled for a avacado, tomato, and cucumber salad and then made myself some rice when I decided that wasn't going to last long enough. Sent out a few random text messages to friends using a few more random curse words about doughnuts and cookies. Then I took the kids to the pool in an effort to ignore the hunger. Came home feeling incredibly tired from sitting in a chair and getting a tan. I started panicking because i decided I was going to get bored with the same snacks and needed to find some recipes to mix it up some. Got on Pinterest only to exasperate the cravings. Am I the only one that finds Pinterest kind of evil? Doesn't everyone want a double chocolate pie at 1130 at night? Anyways.... Had a healthy dinner then off to small group. Had an awesome time laughing and hanging out with some super fun couples. Used every ounce of will power I had left to say NO to the salted chocolate brownies and cupcakes there. I'm not going to lie. I for real thought about giving up. All in all, today was a lot harder. I just kind of didn't feel that good either. Tomorrow isn't suppose to get any easier. So I'm saying some prayers for some creativity so that I dont get bored and give in!! Until then...:)

Day two...

As I write this, I'm realizing it was a terrible idea to wait until this morning to write it. I'm learning this morning about the meaning of "brain fog" and I'm having a terrible time trying to focus on what I even ate yesterday. Ugh... Anywho, I'll do the best I can. 

Yesterday wasn't so bad. Big breakfast of eggs and a smoothie with the kids and it kept me good and full for a few hours. A couple healthy snacks and a delicious lunch that made me think of an miss my dad like crazy. A green salad with home made dressing and cold steak! Ha! I totally remember walking into the kitchen and my dad was leaning against the counter munching on the last nights dinner... Some kind of left over meat. Of course I would walk by and he would shake a bite at me and I would of course eat it. Haha! Miss it!  Anyways, the afternoon started getting a little worse. I got a bit of a headache and started craving something crappy. So i ate a green apple with almond butter and cinnamon. Pretty good! Dinner was salmon, cauliflower rice, and peas. The salmon was amazing!! After dinner I was almost nauseous with the need to have something sweet. So I grabbed a handful of macadamia nuts and a small piece of dark chocolate. I felt better after that. Surprisingly, the nuts were sweeter than the chocolate. I think mentally I was just happy I ate chocolate and knew it wasn't bad for me! The rest of the night was good. That is until Jason and I decided it would be fun to watch a food documentary on meat and all of the hellacious diseases we are all dying from. "Forks over Knives". Anyone seen it? My sister told me about it and I kind of brushed it off. Well, I only watched the first half and went to bed terrified that I was going to be dying of cancer soon and that I need to be a vegetarian. Stress. We both came to the conclusion that our meat consumption should go down, and our whole foods should go up, but the idea of never eating meat.. or DAIRY!!! ever again makes me want to cry like a baby. For now, just going to down our portions on it. So, that's about it for yesterday. I'm not going to lie, today has not been good so far so I'm a little worried about day three, but hopefully we can find lots to do today. I see a pool in my future! Have a yummy day everyone!!😉

Day ONE

Didn't turn out so fantastic... But it was intentional. What happened was, yesterday was our anniversary. What have I been telling Jason I wanted for MONTHS? French macaroons!! And I got them. No, I was not going to let them sit for 21 days without eating them. So today is a little more of day one than yesterday. Althought, that was the ONLY sugar I had yesterday. So I'll tell you a little bit about the rest of the day. 

Woke up yesterday and Jason was off work. We made some bacon and eggs for breakfast which is not too hard to eat! I also made myself a smoothie with a green banana, pure almond butter, and almond milk. Also delicious. I did a friends hair after that so the rest of the morning was easy and I didn't think about food. Until we made the trip to whole foods to get some last minute things. I don't know what the whole foods by you is like, but the one by me is incredible. The bakery!!! The pastrys, the cookies, the gelato!!! I started to crave it. I almost started getting nauseous I wanted it so bad. I just kept my mouth shut and remembered I was getting macaroons. Jason had a good laugh at me and we left. I became a crab! I was highly irritated with the kids and Jason because I wanted a stupid cookie. Luckily, I got my macaroon. Immediately felt better. Then about an hour later, STARVING! Ate some leftovers from moes, which was on the "yes" list. Felt a little better but soon after started needing sugar again. I find myself walking around my house looking for food to "fix" it and get crabbier and crabbier. I don't think it was my body wanting it so much as habbit right now. I'm a bit terrified as to how to today will go with NOTHING. For dinner we made steaks with zucchini noodles(incredibly delicious) and asparagus. Couldn't eat it all. For sure more filling than pasta. The rest of the night I just tried to ignore the craving and ate a small square of 85% dark cocoa. Also on the yes list. Then went to bed because I couldn't stop thinking about those macaroons! Believe me, Pinterest is maybe going on pause for a few weeks! Anyways, for what I did accomplish yesterday, it wasn't too bad as far as hunger goes. Eating more protein really does fill you up! As soon as I ate the cookies, I was starving an hour later. It's so crazy when you really pay attention to your body. The habbit of eating something sweet a few times a day is going to be hard. Can't exactly be a complete crab all day with two kids!! Alrighty, well I'm off to start my day with ZERO sugar! Wish me luck! I'll try and post tonight. 

Making some changes!..Like for real!

Ok guys.. If you really know me, you know how I feel about food. Sugar in particular. Anything that starts or ends with pie or cake is my favorite food. Not so much chocolate... Just SUGAR! The more the merrier. I know for a fact that I'm addicted. I have claimed for years that God has given me what I like to call a "dessert pocket". Yep! That's right. A little pocket that sits on the side of my stomach so that I can eat all the lunch/ dinner I want and still have room for dessert. It's my love, and it's terrible for me. You also may know that we recently went on a gluten free kick. I wasn't seeing much of a difference with Noah, and I started getting terrible indegestion after everything I ate. So I stopped. We started eating it again, and I felt better, and Noah actually started behaving like a new kid. Then something happened. Noah suddenly started morphing back to his old ways. He is easily distracted, can't sit still, zones out, and the incredibly impulsive behavior came back. Nothing else has changed! He never saw a behavior specialist, no more trips to the dr, nothing life changing with parenting has happened either. The only thing we can think of was gluten. After slowly adding it back, he has slowly started getting back to being out of sorts. I LOVE to research food. I am a FIRM believer that tons of illnesses and diseases can be helped from diet changes. So, after a lot of research and prayer, we have decided to do a little detox! Nothing too crazy. We are for sure going back to gluten free, which surprisingly wasn't that hard when you eat at home and prepare yourself. I also need to figure out what it is that gave me indegestion! Also, a sugar detox. I'm super anxious about this one concidering my absolute addiction to it! I cannot control my need for it when it's in front of me. I can't just eat one cupcake. Not just one brownie! And I know it's too much because of how my body reacts. Within an hour, my heart is pounding much harder than normal, I'm tired, and I feel like crap. I know better, but it's so hard to say no. I've learned that your brain on sugar reacts the way it would on cocaine. So, it's a real addiction for me. I need to put an end to this. I want to stay as healthy as possible for my family! I want to be around for a long time and teach them how to make good choices. I want us ALL to be healthy. I've seen the statistics and I know that sugar is a huge culprit with many cancers and we all know I'm not going there. So, tomorrow marks day one of my sugar detox! Not going to make it too crazy since I need lots of energy with these little monsters. Luckily the book I got has a section for extra energy and a level system. I figure I can always try the crazy diet a little later when I'm not afraid of murdering my family. Luckily Jason is doing this with me! He's not so bad with sweets, but the love of sweet tea and dr.pepper is a bit out of hand. My plan is to blog an update everyday!! Yikes! Praying that I can do this and make some major changes for us. Getting as healthy as possible is what I want for my family! I have no plans to rid myself if sweets forever, but if I can the cravings and the need for it, I will feel like that is a huge change. Prayers are appreciated on this 21 day journey! Mostly for the kids! Haha! Until tomorrow.....